symbolic 10: use a knife
I wrote 700 words of shit today.
I'm not going to look at that section again. I'm just going to highlight the first fecal-stained letter, hit 'page down' twice, and make it all vanish. Actions contrary to the basic tenet of 'write till you die' month, but I can't just leave them there. These words smell bad and they aren't going to suddenly expectorate some olfactory effervescence.
This is the throes of week two: when you start second guessing every word. Actually, it is the weak moment of every day at the keyboard. Some days none of the words seem right, they all lie crooked and askew on the page as if arranged by blind amputees working with their tongues. They are your words, though. They came out of your head; they fell from your lips and fingers to the page. You gave birth to them. They are your responsibility: the hideous truth.
They will never grow up straight. Some of them will never achieve any sort of homely luminance. Some of them will never be a suitable framework on which you can hang a glittering idea, hiding their crooked limbs and tortured skeletons with the radiant majesty of your doctrine. Some of them will just be ugly.
Kill 'em quick. They'll only poison the rest of the page. Use a sharp knife and cut them out. Toss them out back and let the night animals have their fill.
Listening to King Crimson's Disciple tonight.
"Frame by frame (Suddenly)
Death by drowning (from within)
In your, in your analysis.
Step by step (Suddenly)
Doubt by numbers (from within)
In your, in your analysis."
writing
This is a reasonably comprehensive list of my published work, both virtual and physical.
THE MISFIT LIBRARY
I am Nine of Thirteen, one of the members of the Misfit Library, a writing collective which puts out a quarterly journal of our respective work. We are scattered across the globe and determined to change the face of the planet one story at a time. The link above will take you to Misfit Central where you can acquire copies of the journal as well as read exclusive online material.
SYMBOLIC
I wrote a column for OPi8.com's Transmit blogs: journals of the new dark underground. SYMBOLIC tracked the novel I was working on, referencing the process and the research materials which mad up the backbone of the work. In addition, SYMBOLIC busied itself with ruminations and considerations on the nature of language and communication. And a wee bit of mythology. The first 100 entries of SYMBOLIC can be found here on this site as well as at OPi8.com.
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